Shame and regret are the enemies that lie awake when you want to sleep. How could I do this? How could I not do that. I’ve always chased perfection. It’s not achievable but I’m going to come as close as I can as fast as I can. My way or no way. I had things really backwards. That is not the way God says it is. First he tells me no one is perfect. Then he tells me change takes time. I have to be the most impatient person I’ve ever met. Instant gratification is probably my favorite. I have to destroy that concept. For all good things really do take time. Thank God for Grace, I feel like I’ll be here a while. I’ve only had a relationship with God for about a year and I thought it was just a breakthrough knowing God himself but no there’s so…